Wow! I do believe I just received a loving, but much deserved scolding from the Lord. This is the prayer I wrote in my prayer journal this morning:
Jesus, I have neglected you for so long that sitting down here to spend time with you feels like a chore again instead of the pleasure it had been. I could try to hide that fact, but there is no hiding it from you so I just as well be blunt. Thankfully it has only been a few weeks, not the months or even years it has been in the past. I can so see the difference in me when I neglect my time with you, I am not the same person at all. Just as your word says, anything good inside of me comes from you. Please help me once again have the burning desire to spend time with you. Yes, it is a busy time of year, but there is nothing more important than my relationship with you. The few minutes I spend in prayer and bible study will more than be given back to me, because I will be more focused and at peace in my work. Enough of the same old/same old. How many times will I say this to you? How many times have you forgiven me for this very same thing and welcomed me back? I am so unworthy and so undeserving of your mercy, but you are so willing, so gracious and so merciful. Jesus, please help today be the first day of the rest of my life……………………..again.
Immediately after writing those words, I opened my bible to where I had left off in my reading plan and these were the very first words waiting for me: I am the vine, you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit. Apart from me, you can do nothing. John 15:5
I would say he was losing patience with me, but I know that is not in his character. He just wants what is best for me, and he knows that the best will only come through him.
Precious Lord, you never fail to amaze me. Thank you so much for speaking directly to my heart this morning. You knew exactly what I needed to hear and at the exact right moment. Amen
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